Paradox: Story of My Life

Don’t worry, I’m not actually going to share the entire story of my life. No way am I going to cover all 26 years in one post, I’m too fascinating for that. 

However, this is more like when people say a simple phrase like “ugh, I’m always missing the bus!” and another person says “story of my life.”

The story of my life? I’m full of paradoxes. 

I embrace my paradoxes and all the frustration that follows to keep myself and you all entertained.

You’re welcome.

Hard-working & Lazy

I am a very hard worker. I help others, taken on extra responsibility and get shit done. 

But

I’m extremely lazy. Sometimes I don’t go to the bathroom when I need to because I don’t want to walk my lazy ass to the bathroom. True story.

Liberal & Traditional

I’ve touched on this before, but I am both liberal and traditional. It just depends on the topic. Instead of claiming one end of the spectrum or the other, I’m swimming in the gray, living in the paradox.

Here are some examples:

Traditional: Taking my husband’s last name, being a stay-at-home mom (if financially possible), and modesty. 

Liberal: my tattoos, my 100% support gay rights/marriage, my inappropriate humor.

*To each their own, no judgement to those who feel differently, these are just a few of my own personal traditional & liberal areas.

Perfectionist & Messy

In so many ways I am a perfectionist. I like things to have their place, I want my work done right and I’m very specific about spelling/grammar (mostly spelling and word use). 

On the other hand, I’m pretty messy. Mostly when it comes to my room and partially due to my laziness, I just don’t care. I mean, I care a little, but not enough to do something about it.

If it doesn’t make sense to you how I could be an “everything has its place” person as well as a messy “I’m just going to throw this over here and forget about it” person, don’t worry. It doesn’t make sense to me either. 

Traveler & Homebody

I LOVE to travel. Seriously, it’s one of my favorite things. I want to go almost everywhere and return to the places I’ve been. There are tons of places in the USA that I want to visit and countless places around the world I would love to see before I die. 

At the same time, I’m such a homebody. I rarely go out after work, aside from appointments and errands. Even when I do have plans, they aren’t for long and then I’m back at home. On the weekends, if I don’t have plans, I like staying home all day. People see my calendar at work and think I’m constantly busy, but trust me, I’m at home in my pjs as soon as possible. Nothing better…. Except traveling ;)

Analytical & Compulsive

I’m super analytical. I want to think of every possible scenario, know every detail. Sometimes I plan my responses to conversations I may not even have. Sometimes I plan what I’m going to pack 3 months before a trip.

But then I’m also compulsive. I’ll just decide on something in 5 seconds flat and figure that I'll analyze it later. Like when I decided that I’d go to Australia by myself even though I’d never traveled internationally before then (or by myself). Or when I decided I would go to Russia with a group of people I didn’t know. 

Because why not?

Sometimes I make compulsive decisions and they even surprise me, or I look back and go “holy crap! How did I even do that… knowing me!?!”

I am a living, walking (sometimes, ha) paradox. I confuse others and myself because I’m so contradictory. But it makes life interesting. And if there’s one thing I don’t want, it’s a boring life. Well… maybe boring and interesting all at once…. ;)