Have you ever been so overwhelmed with good things that you don't know what to do with yourself, but you feel like you can't complain because it's good stuff and people who complain about good stuff are annoying and stupid, so you just let yourself get overwhelmed until your brain shuts down and you write crazy long run-on sentences that you really hate reading when other people do it?
No? Just me?
Well, good thing this is my blog then, eh?
I have a lot of good stuff going on right now and straight off the bat, I want to say that I am totally grateful for all of it. I'm completely blessed and I'm fully aware that I don't deserve any of it.
That being said, I don't even know how to function. Haha.
Here's what's going on in my neck of the woods (thanks, Al Roker!)
On July 7 (ish, maybe before, we'll see), I'm finally moving out of my parents house! I love my parents and all, but I'm 25 so this is well over due. I'm moving into a condo with my friend Kelsey and though it's only a temporary gig (she's getting married next year), it will be nice to be out on my own.
It's a super great deal and because she already lives there, I don't have to worry about furnishing a whole place, just buying a few new things. Awesome.
On July 13 I'm heading for a weekend trip to Toronto (finally!) to stay with my good friend Raf and also see Matt. It's well over due as well, so I'm super excited we have a date set so I can see my boys!! Plus, I'm hoping to do a few more visits before winter comes and the weather gets bad.
On July 21 I leave for a 2-week European Adventure with my amazing cousin, Jaclyn. I know you've heard it before, but we're going to Greece, Czech Republic, Slovakia, Poland, Hungary and Croatia and it's going to be the trip of a lifetime!
How gorgeous is my cousin, Jaclyn?
On August 17 we have a family vacation weekend with my immediate family. We'll be heading out to a cottage by the lake and it's sure to be a great time.
In November I'll be going to Amsterdam for a work training and heading back to Amsterdam again in December for a work Christmas party. How lucky am I to work for an international company who will send me across the ocean for training and partying?!?
So many great things are happening and I love it.
At the same time, my mom asked me today if I was excited about moving and excited about my trip.
My answer? Not really.
Now hold on a second. It's not that I'm really not excited. It's that there is so much coming up, so many details, so much to plan, etc. etc. that my mind is going "oh hey, you know all the major stuff coming up? Yeah, I'm just going to pretend that's not happening. Cool?"
I'm an over-achieving, over-analyzing, over-planning perfectionist. On top of that, I'm trying to get all that "over-ness" in the right balance. So I'm trying to "go with the flow," relax and not stress as much.
But since I'm not used to that, my brain takes that as "meh."
So, in all reality, I'm crazy excited about everything. I'm super happy, endlessly grateful and abundantly blessed. I know I am going to have some amazing experiences and awesome stories that I look forward to sharing with you all.
But for right now, in order to cope with all this goodness, I feel all "Matthew McConaughey" about it. And by that I mean, chill, relaxed, whatever, "right on man, that sounds good."
Also, this does not compare with the post I did about my mom and my dad totally deserves his own post because he rocks, but Happy Father's Day to my awesome dad! I love you!! ♥
Don’t worry, I’m not actually going to share the
entire story of my life. No way am I going to cover all 26 years in one
post, I’m too fascinating for that.
However, this is more like when people say a simple phrase
like “ugh, I’m always missing the bus!” and another person says “story of my
The story of my life? I’m full of paradoxes.
I embrace my paradoxes and all the frustration that
follows to keep myself and you all entertained.
Hard-working & Lazy
I am a very hard worker. I help others, taken on extra
responsibility and get shit done.
I’m extremely lazy. Sometimes I don’t go to
the bathroom when I need to because I don’t want to walk my lazy ass to the
bathroom. True story.
Liberal & Traditional
I’ve touched on this before, but I am both liberal and
traditional. It just depends on the topic. Instead of claiming one end of the
spectrum or the other, I’m swimming in the gray, living in the paradox.
Here are some examples:
Traditional: Taking my husband’s last name, being a
stay-at-home mom (if financially possible), and modesty.
Liberal: my tattoos, my 100% support gay rights/marriage,
my inappropriate humor.
*To each their own, no judgement to those who feel
differently, these are just a few of my own personal traditional & liberal
Perfectionist & Messy
In so many ways I am a perfectionist. I like things to
have their place, I want my work done right and I’m very specific about
spelling/grammar (mostly spelling and word use).
On the other hand, I’m pretty messy. Mostly when it comes
to my room and partially due to my laziness, I just don’t care. I mean, I care a
little, but not enough to do something about it.
If it doesn’t make sense to you how I could be an
“everything has its place” person as well as a messy “I’m just going to throw
this over here and forget about it” person, don’t worry. It doesn’t make sense
to me either.
Traveler & Homebody
I LOVE to travel. Seriously, it’s one of my favorite
things. I want to go almost everywhere and return to the places I’ve been. There
are tons of places in the USA that I want to visit and countless places around
the world I would love to see before I die.
At the same time, I’m such a homebody. I rarely go out
after work, aside from appointments and errands. Even when I do have plans, they
aren’t for long and then I’m back at home. On the weekends, if I don’t have
plans, I like staying home all day. People see my calendar at work and think I’m
constantly busy, but trust me, I’m at home in my pjs as soon as possible.
Nothing better…. Except traveling ;)
Analytical & Compulsive
I’m super analytical. I want to think of every possible
scenario, know every detail. Sometimes I plan my responses to conversations I
may not even have. Sometimes I plan what I’m going to pack 3 months before a
But then I’m also compulsive. I’ll just decide on
something in 5 seconds flat and figure that I'll analyze it later. Like when I
decided that I’d go to Australia by myself even though I’d never traveled
internationally before then (or by myself). Or when I decided I would go to
Russia with a group of people I didn’t know.
Because why not?
Sometimes I make compulsive decisions and they even
surprise me, or I look back and go “holy crap! How did I even do that…
I am a living, walking (sometimes, ha) paradox. I confuse
others and myself because I’m so contradictory. But it makes life
interesting. And if there’s one thing I don’t want, it’s a boring life.
Well… maybe boring and interesting all at once…. ;)
Thanks to all our military men and women who have sacrificed so much for the freedoms of this country.
I'm going to be honest, I don't have a theme for today. I don't have much else to say on Memorial Day, though I am grateful to our military for their sacrifices, that's about it. So, I've decided to give you a collection of random musings I've had lately. I know you've been waiting for it.
Fifty Shades of Grey
Probably not what you thought I was going to talk about next right? ;)
I have heard a lot of mention of "Fifty Shades of Grey" lately and saw a lot of vague postings on pinterest, but I didn't know what it was about. So, I looked it up on wikipedia. At work. Bad idea. Haha.
For those of you who don't know, apparently "Fifty Shades of Grey" started out as erotic/bdsm fanfiction for Twilight. The "author" then went and changed the names and got it published in a limited amount until it got really popular and now "everyone" is reading it. It has been dubbed "mommy porn." Awkward.
Here's why I don't think I will ever read this trilogy:
1) Anything that started with Twilight makes me sick.
2) Unnecessary trilogies are annoying.
3) Most importantly, the writing. I saw the books in Target the other day and read the back of the first one. Just by the description, I knew I would never buy these books. Then I started seeing quotes from the books on pinterest.
The writing is so bad that I think I would be too distracted for it to succeed in producing the intended affect. I think it's the kind of book that if you get a few chapters in, no matter how bad, you just have to read the story until the end. But I don't think I'd be able to get past the awful writing in order to get far enough in that I'd care to finish.
(somebody shoot me now)
I do not mourn the fact that I will not be reading these books. I'm pretty sure I'll keep a few IQ points for abstaining. Sorry Grey fans.
Arachnophobia & My Own Crazy
I straight up have arachnophobia: the fear of spiders and other arachnids.
(this is the only spider picture I'll use because a picture of a real one would freak me out)
Basically, I don't like creepy-crawly things. Not a fan. I have learned to kill small, slow-moving spiders with a shoe, but that's about it. If it's big, fast moving or I don't have a shoe, I'm a crazy person.
Tears, hyperventilation, the works. It's not pretty, folks.
But almost as bad as an actual spider is my own crazy.
I will often have the feeling that a spider is crawling on me. I will freaking lose my mind. Swatting at myself, increased heart rate, etc. Only to find out that 90% of it the time it's my own hair grazing my arm.
Really? I just had a mental breakdown because my hair was touching me?!
Of the remaining 10% - 9.5% is the wind and 0.5% is an actual spider. And that 0.5% is a pretty generous percentage. I'm a lunatic.
Update On My Trip & Running
Did I tell you guys this? The European Adventure trip with my lovely cousin, Jaclyn, is officially booked!!
Leaving July 21, returning August 4. I'll have a few hours in NYC where I might go see the Statue of Liberty/Ellis Island, because why not?
Then I meet Jaclyn at the airport and we fly to Athens, Greece. A day in Athens, 2 days on Santorini Island (in a beachfront hotel!) and another day back in Athens.
Then we fly to Prague, Czech Republic where we have the day to ourselves, and the following day we start in Prague for our 8-day tour. We'll go to Moravia, Slovakia, Auschwitz & Birkenau Concentration Camps, Krakow, Poland, Zakopane, Poland, Budapest, Hungary, Lake Plitvice National Park, Croatia, and Split, Croatia. And possibly some other stops I'm forgetting.
As far as my running goal- not happening. But don't lose faith, friends! I'm not running (or climbing many stairs) because my knee is really messed up from the fall back in December. Trying to run aggravated it enough that I saw a doctor. Tried Physical Therapy, but it wasn't helping. I might need surgery.
Since I wouldn't be able to get surgery and heal before the trip, I'm pretending that's not happening (it's not for sure anyway), so instead I'm trying to get it stronger before the trip. I joined a gym (whoa!) and I saw a personal trainer who helped me created a balanced cardio and strength training workout. So we'll see!
(in case you're confused, I don't look like this at all! haha!)
Um... now I want to take a nap, so I'm going to stop writing. ha!